Huge Rant...I cannot keep living this way!!!

The medicine they gave me is NOT working!!! I know they said give it a month or two to start working, but it feels like it is taking forever! I decided to take it, because I cannot keep living like this. I cannot keep waking up every morning from 7 to midnight-or later cleaning, cleaning, cleaning! I mean, I dare you to come to my house and find one thing out of place. One dirty dish. One crumb under my couch cushions. Even my dirty laundry is in order and all facing the same way. I had to get rid of some of the cleaning supplies and medicines we had because they weren't the same brand, height, etc. as the other ones. I can't even walk through the living room without feeling like I can't breath because I think it isn't clean. IT IS CLEAN! I keep telling myself that, but my mind keeps saying, "No it's not PERFECT!" But I can't find anything wrong with it either! IT IS PERFECT! I have bleached all the walls and baseboards and doors. I've shined everything in the house, right down to the silverware. It is sparkling. All I need to do now is get the carpet cleaned. I would like to repaint the walls, but we can't. :/ But I did repaint the air vents. I have even gone through and made sure that everything we have is in perfect condition. No scratches. No dents. No dirt. I organized it all and made sure it is facing the same way. I constantly go through each room in my head and think, "Okay, is everything perfect?" I have scrubbed all the floors and now I feel like we can't walk on them because they will get dirt on them and I will have to do it all over again. I can't focus on anything anymore! I have always been a pretty clean person. Everybody comments on how nice the house looks, but it has just gotten worse in the last few months. It isn't just something I like to do anymore. I am disgusted with cleaning, but I have to do it so that I don't start panicking. Sometimes I think I would just rather panic than clean. I despise it so much. I just wish this medicine would work so I can get back to my normal life! Playing with Samantha. Doing her lessons. Being able to sit down with Jessie and watch TV at night. ANYTHING BUT CLEANING!