Status Update: Wants To Be Left Alone...

I just want to be left alone. As everything gets closer, and dates are approaching, I can feel it even more. Something is missing. I just want to be left alone today. I want to talk about it, but I don't really. I am not even sure what to say here, but I needed to write...This past month has been AMAZING! All my dreams have come true, but as things calm, everything reminds me of what could have been. I see three ice cream bowls and three pop corn trays. There are two bedrooms and two beds. One car seat and one kid. This is all there will ever be. It was all I ever wanted until last November. But now, it is all I will ever have. I will not put myself through this again.