Monday, January 25, 2010
New Mom
This is a paper I had to write as a makeup assignment on homebound:
I have been a teen mom for a week and two days now, and I love it. My baby’s name is Samantha-Anne Mays. She was born Tuesday September 23rd and she weighed 8 pounds 11.4 oz. Being a mom definitely keeps me busy. I am not in regular school right now, but I am doing a homebound school, which gives me something to do when she sleeps. Since she is new born, she sleeps a lot. So far, I haven’t had any problems taking care of my baby. Before I had my baby, there were a few things I was concerned about. Mainly, I was concerned about sleep, if I would ever find time for it. Another concern I had was having money to support her. And lastly, just getting used to my baby, getting to know her and her schedule made me nervous.
On Monday, the 22nd, I was induced at Hutcheson. That Friday I had gone to the doctor because they though I was developing toxemia. The doctor told me just to make sure the baby isn’t affected by it, they were going to induce me. When I got to the hospital, they took me to the back room. They were so full, even though they knew I was coming, they still didn’t have a room. They took me into this room where three other women were waiting and they ask me a whole bunch of questions. When they finally got me into a room, they put an IV in me. (That was my biggest fear.) The nurse blew two of my veins before she went and got another nurse. (That didn’t help my fear at all.) I had so many things to do packed in my labor bag, but I ended up just wanting to sit there the whole time. I went all day hooked up to these monitors. One had the baby’s heart beat and the other measured my contractions. All day, I didn’t feel any contractions at all. Though I had them, I still wasn’t dilating. They stopped the Patosin at six so I could eat and around 9 that night, they put in Cervidell. That seemed to start working instantly! I made it three hours through the contractions before I ask for Demoral. The next day they gave me more Patosin and it wasn’t long before I had her. I ended up getting an Epidural, but I didn’t feel a thing. =P Jessie helped me through all of my labor and my Mom was there for most of it. After I had my baby at 1 o’clock exactly, I didn’t get to hold her. I lost too much blood, but at least Jessie got to hold her first. He also got to cut the cord. We made sure to take lots of pictures. I got to leave the hospital that Friday as soon as they got the results back for my blood count. I was so glad to finally be home.
As far as my concerns go, over the past week, I have fallen in love with her sleeping patterns. She is amazing. So far, although I know it can change, she only wakes up at night once, at three o’clock every night. In the morning, she wakes up as soon as Jessie starts getting ready for school. She sleeps through most of the day too, but that’s okay, because I know that will change soon. As far as finances goes, my Mom is letting us all live with her. We pay the water bill ever month and we are responsible for Samantha-Anne and ourselves. My main concern, getting to know my baby, still kind of makes me nervous. Sometimes I’m afraid she won’t like me or that she gets mad at me when I take too long to get her a bottle or don’t remember to change her everytime she is wet, because it is all new to me. Sometimes I feel like I hurt her when I dress her or pick her up. And sometimes I feel like I don’t know what she needs. I guess that just comes with being a parent.
One of the hardest things for Jessie and me is arguing. Since Samantha-Anne was born, I sometimes snap at him for small things like leaving his clothes on the floor just because I don’t realize how hard he works and how tired he must be. And sometimes Jessie jumps on me because I am overly emotional at the same time he is exhausted. The best part, however, is that I know Samantha-Anne was born safely and I finally got to meet her and hold her and play with her.
Being a teen mom isn’t hard when you have support. My family loves Samantha-Anne. They were up at the hospital every day to see her. It also helps to the support of Samantha-Anne’s daddy. Without him, I wouldn’t know what to do. It would kill me to have to work all night and never see her. I can only imagine how he feels. He loves his daughter with all his heart and I do too, which is why I wouldn’t change anything even if I could.
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