Eh...This had been bothering me.

I have been thinking a lot lately, about having more kids. It's one of those big decisions you have to make, and in my opinion you need to make in a certain window of time. Jessie and I had decided no more because of what happened with Lucy. It just wouldn't be fair to have more. And Jessie still says no more, so it isn't like  I can just say, "Let's have another one." and he would say okay. But it has really been bothering me.
It probably wouldn't be a good idea to have another one because Samantha is so content as an only child, and I like that all our time, money, and effort goes toward her and her alone. Our world revolves around her, and I Love that. 
And I think the only reason I want another is to "fix my mistakes" with her. I wish I would have taken more time to pick my OB instead of just going where my Mom went. I wish she would have never gone to daycare. I wish I would have breastfed. I wish I wish. I wish. But having another one is not going to fix everything, and I realize that. And you don't have more kids just to do those things. 
So as much as it pains me to hear people hammer us about having more kids and how selfish we are for not, and it hurts to not be able to explain why, Samantha will probably be an only child for the rest of her life. 
Okay, just needed to get that off my chest...
So we think we are going to get a cat. Not that that will replace any children we would have had, but it would be nice. I think Samantha would enjoy playing with it and it will teach her to take care of it. I really think we should name the cat LuLu. (We want a girl.) We are going Sunday to the shelter we found. It is $20.00 for a cat and it comes with up to date shots. They are fixed. They have all kinds of testing already done. And you get your first check up for them free. They also have a microchip. 

This is the collar I want off Etsy. I LOVE pearls. 

This is the bowls and holder we want, but I would like darker wood. I definitely want it personalized though.